![]() We easily overlook the truth that He, the Author of Life, was in total control. Fear of death from Covid-19 shrouded our nation. I was confined in space and restricted in movement. Look ahead and say WHY NOT”Īnger welled within me. The “whys” dominated my conversations with Him instead of submitting. Self-doubt assailed me as I poured my complaints to God. I recalled episodes of agony and regret over mistakes made, harsh words spoken, deep wounds inflicted on others, wasted energy, and time spent on futile activities. My days ended in exhaustion where I uttered a brief prayer before sleep, hoping that tomorrow I will rise early to commune with the Lord. All of which dampened my desire to commune intimately with the Lord. ![]() My current fast- paced life is one of rush through my Quiet Time long waiting queues for transport, food, and tedious, energy-draining activities. I sensed that the Lord has prepared many lessons for me during this period. It stood in stark contrast to the image above my bed. The following morning I saw a panoramic city view, with the Singapore Flyer like a small cogwheel suspended in the sky filled with majestic clouds. Unlike Paul and Silas, my feet were not shackled. I was reminded of the extraordinary faith of the Apostle Paul, who faced persecutions & imprisonments and his unshakeable allegiance to the LORD. Though momentarily perturbed, I knew that I was safe. A clear reminder that I was not allowed to leave the room except for work. It was painted in a ghastly green color with two noticeable padlocks. A picture of an ancient collapsible grill gate hung above the bed. I returned from overseas and underwent a week of self-isolation in a single room at a designated service suite. Senior executive, Singapore Anglican Community Services (SACS), Simei Care Centre Published on Thursday, July 21st, 2022 under Latest Posts, Testimonies Last but not least, my gratitude to my treasured siblings, ever-supportive family and angelic domestic help (Sini). My grateful thanks to His angels on Earth (healing prayer team at SJSM, fellowship team at HCF, multi-disciplinary medical team at NUH, bosses and colleagues at NUS, friends, well-wishers and strangers who reached out to me). All praise to God for His blessings and favour. With God’s grace, I have been on remission for 4.8 years now. My stoma bag was reversed and I went back to work on 30 April 2018, after 6.5 months. My journey ahead is uncertain but I am certain of this – God is great. My circumstances were overwhelming but I cling onto God’s promise that He will never leave me or forsake me. My problems may seem big, but God is bigger. It was a period of rest, renewal, and strengthening my relationship with God. My mantra during this time was “Jesus heal me, Jesus be with me, Jesus bring angels to give me the courage to move forward.” I spent my 6 months recovery time meditating on scripture. Each time, God gave me His strength and grace to commit my challenges to Him and not to focus on my problems. ![]() During my recovery, I had to be rushed to the hospital three times for complications and dehydration. It was challenging to manage my medical condition. She passed away peacefully in her sleep in March 2018. My bubbly 80-year-old mother’s health condition took a turn for the worse – she had a massive heart attack and onset of dementia. In January 2018, my 60-year-old elder brother suddenly passed away due to a brain haemorrhage. I had multiple tubes, attached to the left and right of my body. Cancerous tumours are surgically removed, and then heated chemotherapy drugs are applied directly inside the abdomen to eliminate the remaining cancerous cells.ĭuring my post-surgery 17 days in the ICU, high-dependence and surgical wards, I looked like a ‘transformer’ from the movies. This surgery is a two-step procedure that treats cancers in the abdomen. On 13 October 2017, I had to go through a 14-hour major surgery and hyperthermic intraperitoneal chemotherapy (HIPEC)]. In 2017 was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer of appendix (with secondary malignant peritoneal deposits).
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